Can we all just stop being mean to ourselves?
I can’t be alone on this subject… I’m not right?
I just finished my first workout of yet another round of the 21 day fix workout program. Earlier today I decided it was probably best that I start out with the original 21 Day Fix since it had been quite a while since I last worked out. It was ugly you guys. 21 Day fix please be kind to me, give me all the grace. I need it. I’m sorry for the things I said when I was trying to not die doing surrenders.
Honestly, I am so glad no one was watching during this workout because I’m pretty sure that half of the time I was being so mean to myself with a side of ugly tears. I actually “marco poloed” my sister afterwards and I’m pretty sure she will listen to that and either:
1) laugh because she can relate,
2) cry because she can relate or
3) be mad at me for how mean I was to myself.
WHY must I be so mean to myself?! Why after doing a workout that has a move in it titled “surrenders” (which by the way are “pure EVIL“) am I beating myself up so hard… ugh. Guys, I can’t even tell you how many years ago now I was in really decent shape… before Lukey. I busted my butt and worked so hard and was so proud of myself. Fast-forward to today… starting over day 1. Man that was incredibly humbling to say the very least. I always wonder where I’d be if I didn’t just keep working out? I’m fighting my mind big time this evening… she’s not very nice.
I was pretty hyped up last Thursday (April 19th) about starting up another round of the 21 Day Fix. I ordered Shakeology, bought some “just in case” quest bars (<– not necessarily on the 21 day fix but that’s a post for a whole other day) and completely psyched myself up. I have worked so hard on organizing my home, making time for myself (<– that’s a BIG deal for me AKA excuses why I couldn’t devote time to working out.. I know.) and creating new routines for my children. We started going back to church and my kids are really loving it. Heck I’m loving the church grind every Sunday morning. Can you even guess what happened yesterday the day before starting my workout program? My husband woke with a migraine and I woke with excruciating pain in my shoulder blade. There was so much pressure and pain I couldn’t believe it. Needless to say we didn’t go to church.
“There’s this beautiful thing called — IMPERFECT PROGRESS — slow steps of progress wrapped in grace.” -LYSA TERKEURST
On Monday I woke up and literally gave myself a pep talk before I even got out of bed. It went something like this, “ok Amanda gotta get it done! Time to make yourself proud again it’s time to get healthy. Time to put the meanness to rest and start being a positive role model for the kids!” Just like that, I decided that the hard work was worth it.
I officially started the 21 Day Fix on Monday, April 23rd. I have drank an entire gallon of water every day this week. I typically really stink at drinking water you can read about that here. Which by the way is about a gallon more water than I drink regularly (haha). I have lost 1.5 pounds since Monday and I’m pretty happy with that. I haven’t done the 21 Day Fix perfectly. I’m practicing what I preach to my friends and family – imperfect progress. Here’s to the next 15 days!